STUPIDITY....

*take a deep breath ...*

For some reasons..I feels like someone stupid!!
very very stupid and feels like a loser...:(
until I realize and decided to stop it.

Listen to my own deep feeling or intuitions...
that what I missed from the beginning...
regrets? not really...part of my feeling enjoy it :D
when it goes disappointed me at the end..I'll take it as a risk ...

I believe that something happen for a reason...
make us learning something....
learning how to being honest...at least to our self
learning how to dealing with our own feeling...*this one could be the hardest part*
learning how to "read" more...when dealing to others
learning how to decided the best for our soul...

Emotionally ...I doubt myself that I could take it...
sometimes I'm not sure that I couldn't resist the temptation of it...
and mostly I'm feeling down at the other side...
complicated ? yup..actually complicated it's my middle name..:D
then I decided to stop. I'm done finally...phew!
[GOD works with his secret way..no need to much efforts and it's comes]

Off course I'm not XENA :D even though some friends pointed me like her *tampol*
honestly..I'm XENA outside but PRINCESS AURORA inside :p